how does one stop a heart from yearning?

a question that has been lingering over my head for far too long. i should be glad to have found out what he's really about. but i still remember how sweet his words were. i should be happy that i snapped out of my world of denial. yet i still long for that false sense of happiness. and i should be content with the fact that the same thing will happen to her for not listening to me. only i wish i were her right now.

lol i disgust myself sometimes.

anyhoo, happy 18th to courtney!! you're finally legal, dearest! i can't wait to see your new artwork ;P.

ap stats sucked. pretty sure i bombed the test. especially since i fell sleep in the middle of it lol. but sixth period made me a little happier since i owned on our last physics test. have i proven you wrong yet, mr. lee? muahah.

i'm so excited for halloween! i'm gonna be an eskimo! (a cute ish one haha). this is only like the second or third time i've actually dressed up for this holiday in all of my 17 years of living. i'm also pretty stoked for the false lashes rachel and i bought at wal mart today. yes, simple things in life are worth being happy over :D.

banquet is sunday! i can't wait! i miss all my fellow champions :[.