drained

i'm spent. both physically and emotionally. there are too many nights spent staying up and way more drama than i can handle. i'm falling asleep in class or i'm just not there, mentally. i can't concentrate on anything but whatever bullshit is going on in my life. but bullshit never really goes away, does it? haha.

so i just got back from taking SATs. in goddamn oakland. it was ridiculous. they let everyone into the school fifteen minutes late; someone gave our proctor the reasoning tests instead of the subject ones; and we got disrupted in the middle of our test taking when they had to let some extra kids into our room. >[. yes, that is my bitter face. well, at least i didn't fall asleep in the middle of it this time haha.

aahhh! i found out a week ago that ivan gets to start working in new york soon. lucky bitch lol. it's one thing that he gets to run into rihanna in the hallway at work, but getting to live in my dream location? /and/ make loads of monies while at it? wtf. lol. i think i'm gonna stowaway in one of ivan's bags and sneak over to new york with him. and call up nick to take me to serendipity's for some frozen hot chocolates :D. and take me to 5th avenue so i can look at all the pretty things i can't afford?

i think i'm watching eagle eye at great mall with niko, see jan again for the first time in two years, andddd possibly meet pannid! awesome.