i broke a promise to myself

i hate forming types of relationships/bonds with people when i know they'll just turn out in vain. i need to learn to stop contradicting my instincts. depending on other people never turns out well. at least in my world. sure, mistakes are made for a reason, but i hate making the same ones over and over again. all people do is screw each other over. and everyone wonders why i'm such a bitch. i just beat them to the punch.