finals are upon us!!

i have decided to update rather than write my paper that is due tomorrow.

these next couple of weeks are going to be stressful to hell with finals and cramming to study. too many papers to write in too little time. one five page paper that's due tomorrow and an eight page paper that's due friday. and then it's the english department final the morning after. GAH. and then two more finals the next week. now i know why all my older college friends were tearing their hair out this time of year. it's like the 'oh god i actually need to to work now' phase of the semester. on the brightside, there's an entire month's worth of break to enjoy after that :D.

signing up for classes today was a bitch too. i have this feeling i'm gonna end up stuck with that late evening class i signed up for and not get into the same one i waitlisted for a better time. keep your fingers crossed for me? but at least i got 3 classes required for my major into my schedule. i'm excited to be learning some useful stuff next semester rather than just wasting time in some obscure g.e. classes.

i miss kevin :/. his retardedness is a lot more fun in person.

i don't want to be that girl

i hate this feeling of insecurity and jealousy. i didn't care before. i feel like he's ruined me for any future relationships.

god damnit, sara. suck it up and get over it.

-_-

this kind of died

jeezus i can't remember the last time i updated this thing. and i'm way too lazy to look at the time stamp on my last entry.

anyway. it's been almost 3 months since i've been in college. too much crazy shit has happened since then. mainly ending up in the hospital with alcohol poisoning only 3 weeks into school. haha i am doing so well. i'm not meeting as many new people as i'd like. but no one really feels like being social in 7:30 am classes, and i'm always cooped up in my room doing work. my floormates are interesting people though. i've discovered that i'm not into the whole frat party scene. i can't have fun unless i'm drunk. and that can't be a good thing.

kevin is something new in my life too :]. it took me too long to realize that nice is the way to go. he treats me well and keeps me happy. for the most part haha. he's new to the whole relationship thing and still has to learn that there are things you do not say in front of your girlfriend heh. and there are some things i thought couldn't get better. but they sure have :P.

the holidays are coming up real soon and i still don't have money for gifts and such :/. i really do need to get on top of getting a job for next semester. i'm always talking about it, but it's time i be productive about it lol. apparently my loan refund check went towards my housing payment which makes no sense at all. i need to find out what's happening with that too. things seem to be getting more frustrating as time goes by. weekends always seem forever and a day away. but they're usually worth it. from what i can remember anyway ;].

so this is a really lonely saturday night. i haven't had one of these in a long while. and it's pissing me off to know that i'm sitting here home alone, eating ice cream, and watching grease. although i have no problem with the grease part. or the ice cream. being alone is the sucky part, obviously. and i miss my besties soooo much! it's been ages since i've last seen them. which doesn't make any sense if i'm home this weekend and some of them are still in fremont. ugh.

such is life, i suppose.